Friday, September 10, 2010

New writing from the CPITS Conference

ELLERY AKERS WRITING INTENSIVE 

We practice knocking on the earth, we test the names of things. William Stafford said to lower your standards. And so we do. Some 30 of us gathered at the Institute of Noetic Science on the hills above San Antonio Creek and the Petaluma Valley, to work with poet-naturalist, Ellery Akers. We look at list poems, we note the use of the senses—most notably the sense of smell. We note strong verbs. What the body can do. We read Gary Snyder's Things to do around a Lookout, and Linda Gregg's A Flower that Named Itself. We bring in names and body sensations.  (Note: these are raw, unedited).

SUMMER FOG

We are wrapped in a summer fog
that scrubs the air after fire
Mt. Diablo burning—like a volcano.
Paint the sky a tender sunset.
Tender tinder catching fire 
with the energy of an idea.
The cricket practices
the seething sound
of combustion and loss.

9/10/10


Ellery asks us to use the names of things in our writing, but I worry that the naming of things erases from the thing itself; I am suspicious of noun. As Bob Hass wrote in one of my favorite poems, Meditation at Lagunitas, each particular erases from the clarity of a general idea.


WILDFIRE

What about the ones 
who can't flee the fire?
I worry about deer mice
naming them and king snakes,
naming them shadow and light.
Even rattlers are on my worry list
as the smoke billows and rolls
like a punitive god.


REGENERATION

My skin crawls with particulate and ash.
Funerary regeneration at inception.
Next year, the slopes will bleed
yellow suns of mariposa and poppy.
Shadows will dress in lavender sage 
saxifrage, meadowfoam and gillia.


Most people don't know the names of wild flowers, they say, oh look, how pretty. They are quick to name colors, as if that were enough to sustain the imagination. Pink. Yellow. Blue flower. Pretty. So, the naming of things is meaningless, or is it meaningless for me alone? But I already know the names, so who am I naming it for. I understand the notion of specificity—but it diminishes from the verb-ness of being. I look into the throat of a gillia, and note its deep color, so like a Johnny Jump Up. A landing strip for bees. But the poems hovers out of sight.

AFTER THE FIRE:
TWO HAIKU

After the wildfire
pine seeds will open small fists 
of green renewal.

The mountain will paint 
itself back into beauty
after the fire.


UNTITLED HOMELAND

It feels wrong facing north
on the skirts of Mt Burdell
on this inland range
overlooking the Petaluma Valley
for my homeland is to the west,
toward the sea.



I was born within sight of the ocean
and a nervousness dances 
when I stray from the coastal hills of my birth.
The slopes of Mt. Barnabe sheltered me.
The long arm of the ridge wrapped itself
around our house holding us in from the world.

Afternoons I'd ride the crest of the ridge
testing the odor of pine and bay.
Sweet lethe, the crickets sizzled 
in the rattlesnake grass 
shaking a soft rhythm in the breeze.

9//10/10
Published at Medusa's Kitchen, Dec 7, 2010



The long line of ridges calling me out of the room. Siren call. Away from the writing. But I'm determined to stick it out. Nothing comes. Nothing comes. Not even decent photos. Ellery tells us that Evan Boland said she writes every day but gets one poem out of 30. That's about one a month. She also said that Marvin Bell said it's more important to write badly than well—as it's raw. Ellery wants raw. I say RAW! I roar. RAW RAW RAW! I think of Gollum eating raw fish in the dark heart of the mountain. What's it got in its pocketses? I've got the writing badly part down pat.

We steal verbs from the Greats, We note the action verbs from Roethke's Children on Top of a Greenhouse. We note the verbs and take them in. Harbor them. Give them shelter. We define the shakers and movers in a language. We read Rukeyser's A Little Stone in the Middle of the Road. 

Ellery's color-coded packets of poems are a shambles. I can't read poems reduced to 6 or 8 point type—especially indoors under florescent lights with these eyes of 57 years—soon to be 58 years. I'm nearly as old as my mother was when she died. The though pales me. I'm distressed by the presentation of poems slapped sideways in every crevice—we follow arrows to the end of a poem. My dyslexia bitch slaps me so I can't read even with double magnification and must rely solely on the orality of words. 

I have a reverence for the placement of things. Words on the page, a line drawing, or random objects on a shelf. I am always composing shape and texture, light and dark. Chaos into order. The double hazard of being both artist and writer. 

Ellery introduces the concept of blathering. She wants us to focus on the music and repetition.Go whole hog with phrases like: What I really want to say is... But does she know that blather is a loan word from the Irish, the gift of the gab? Or the gob, more like. I'm gob-smacked. She calls it a five-minute nutcase exercise. OK, I'll bite.

And so we have a go at mistranslation from the Swedish. Transtromer—Playing the Piano. The long song of music. Only thing is, I can grok the Swedish. Not that I know any Nordic language.

AFTER TRANSTRÖMER'S LÁNGSAM MUSIK
(a mistranslation)

Bring on all the strings
a solo trianon of aeloean harps
seek the generous firmness of notes
they play an earthquake of wandering ovations
writing broad strokes in the stark night
at the back of the masked oceans of fear
triggering our dreams with a lute.

One day you will understand
the playing language shuttered inside
the notes. It will live again
as a miracle with more clarity
and the stolen blond notes of summer grass
will find the karma of fire.
A lonely symphony of heat
will blaze with such frankness
that the cry of the willow
will weep water
and the waterfall will run clear.

Blond streams fruitful
the lengthy thought
banging up the mountain.


Well, that was pure drivel. I can't seem to enter into a poem. Ellery asks us to use words from the lists. But I can't even read the words. She's rushing us, perhaps wanting to get us to write 30 poems in today's afternoon workshop alone, so we'll have one keeper poem out of it all. Hurry, hurry, hurry through the poems. Take shortcuts because you've done it before. I've done that. Been there. Yes. But much of this material is new to us. I want to savor the words a bit, get the directions down—be able to read the words, so I can write, informed. I vow not to rush my students ever again. 

Write crazy surrealist images exercise. Use repeated phrases. Andre Breton, My wife.... The Sybil and  Nothing by Kathy Coleman. This has something to do with.... There is___in ____ named...

I think:
death in translation
my mother predicted my death

I go with There is...as that's all I can remember from the list.

THERE IS DRIVE

There is drive in the seed 
of the sunflower.
After sleep, it catches fire, 
a blaze of fiery yellowness
pulling the stretch of time 
over us like a button.

There is a stutter 
in the throat of the nervous sky
battening down its hatches 
of light and remorse
like a sailor too long at sea.

There is a dizzying blue of chickory 
whirring past by the roadside
amide the hostile shoulders of stone 
and gravel and shattered glass
amid the virtuous thistles.

There is a thread cut loose 
from the pond of the sky
as dragonflies dip and weave
crocheting the air with cerulean and lapis.

There is something carnal unloosened
from the red thread of the willow root 
dipping into the last summer stream
while the parched meadow watches from afar.

There is mortar in the beginnings on rain
exploding on the red clay earth.
Franciscan strata and serpentine at odds with,
yet married to this one place where the earth growls.

There is a porch of afternoon thought
watching a parade of cars
quench a volatile thirst of rangoon distance.

This has something to do with distance
longing they say, because what comes before
the wheel of time is relentless
as sand at the apex of a dune.

There is something to do with the unfettered wind
that comes and goes where it pleases
hissing thorough the leaves of a live oak
or sybalent whispering though the pines.

There is something of a secret kept from us
translation, a dark process of water and fire
whispering slantwise in our ears.

The far ridge beckons
my home, my home.


THE RUN ON SENTENCE
Blather, part 2. Ellery reads Carolyn Kizer's Threatening Letter
She says: Use blathery phrases to create a run on sentence: I understand, I suppose, just remember. on the other hand, the unifying principle behind all this
CK Williams Each time/ Sharon Olds, Adolescence. Diaphragms.
Pile on the details. Make a memory poem of smells and sound. When I was 10, here are, give me back, I can still remember, That was the year, etc.

THE END OF THE RELATIONSHIP

I remember when I left 
my diaphragm 
on the shelf of the tub 
after a bath where
he left an egg under it.

TAKE II

I suppose you'll want me to be precise 
describe the way the sky reflects back on my shades
though we're indoors and I can barely see.
The sun has come out after two months of gloom
I am blinded by its strength, the way colors come alive, 
the blue of sky against the dark green of oak 
and the blond manes of grass everywhere, a riot of color.

And I can barely see with my spectacles on 
and the print is too tiny for me to see under artificial light
and besides I can't read indoors after rain either
the way the light transgresses, turns blue as the sky.

At least with Edison's light bulbs 
there is a spark from the earliest fires 
of Las Caux and Altamira.

I suppose I really should look up more often, 
see the sky for what it is, polluted with greed and soot.

On the other hand, the type on the paper 
is like little ants squirming out an unintelligible meaning.

Of course I can read it, just not under this lack of light. 
It might as well be the dark side of the moon.

I suppose if I got really strong glasses 
I could read  6-point type, 
smudged by generations of copy machines, 
but do I really want to? OK, this is shit.

Did you know that even after several years, 
wearing glasses makes me bilious and headachy? 

I suffer more from migraines that most.
I blame the glasses, or maybe the floating islands of Lake Titicaca
My classmate Doug was complaining of vertigo 
and blamed a past life spent on an open sea.
He blamed the Straits of Magellan.
Whereas I blamed Tierra del Fuego 
for not shedding enough light on the subject. 

He blamed the Straits of Magellan 
whereas I blamed the sea.

Here, there are ants at a picnic 
on the coastline of words
nonsensical syllables
my eyes grow old,
they grow old, they grow old.

Where is TS Eliot when we need him?
My eyes are all glazed up and damseled about
in this cage of old age.

Wait! That was Ezra in the cage of madness, not Eliot.

The unifying principle behind all this blathering
is that I'm rapidly approaching my "sell by" date.

You see, when I was a child, I was a powerful dreamer
what I dreamed came into being
like my dreaming of Russian troikas in the snow
I dreamed it in Mrs. Brice, the mean teacher's homeroom class.

It was late afternoon, probably sometime in the fall.
She was droning on about something
but my daydreams were too powerful for me to follow her.

I was an escape artist and I dreamed of the world.
I dreamed of Russia and Peru, the places I'd read about
and indeed I went to all those places. They fueled my thoughts.

But you see I also dreamed of a world so terrible
when I was 50, and the more I imagined the earth,
the closer I looked, to clarify my vision,
the worse the world became.

The harder I dreamed, the worse it got
and soon I couldn't dream myself into being
not into old age, not past my 50th year, 
and yet here I am
on the eve of another birthday
past my sell by date
in the fall, verging into winter.


FLYKU

the fruit flies knitting 
their hands in despair thinking
of the coming fall.


ON NATURE POETRY  blue sheet
persona, use run-on sentences, think, & become the object
become the thing from the inside
pay attention to rhythm
write about a plant or an inanimate object
An Axe looks at winter Snyder
Our models Louise Gluck—Wild Iris 
Carlos de Andrade, Muriel Ruckheyser—The universe is made of stories.

Starter lines:
i remember
I overheard
it is so terrible
you, who do not remember
I tell you
At the end of suffering 

BECOME THE OAK

Think, become the oak
Become the maple or the iris
The sun drinks lavender
Become the sward of grass in late summer
the odor of tarweed
Become the meniscus of the sky 
bearing down on the horizon
Become the breeze 
seething in hot summer
while the buckeye aestivates
Become the dance of fal
the first leaf spiraling like a ballerina
Become the line of trees 
following the crevice of the hill
sweet water seeking the solace of rock
Become the lonely islands of bunch grass 
amid the alien oats
A tower of brome babel in the the wind
the ancestor of corn and wheat
Become the hiss of serpentine
tufts of Indian soaproot on the beaten path
or prayer flags in the garden
Become the mud flat at low tide
Become the sweet odor of creosote and coyote bush
Become the slough giving back the blue of the sky
a marriage of sorts, the sky and estuary
Become the star thistle—
whether in magenta or in yellow
an interloper, so common, 
Still, the striped bumblebees roll 
and dance in the blossoms anyway
Become the head of the onion, gone to seed
the rattle of deer hooves on pavement
Become the breeze from the west
laden with the memory of the sea
Become the reservoir, become the lake, 
or the drought that uncovers ancient shores, 
old campsites and middens
Become the distinction 
between the seen and unseen.


Become the slope of Sonoma Mountain
or the secret of the Soulajoule range
Become the secret plan of the deerpath
the distant knock of woodpeckers in deep forest.

Become all these things 
because there is no division 
between Self and self
Become the constancy of the wind.



Ann Carsen- My religion
WS Merwin Chord, Native American idea of giving thanks before you begin.
use opposites—both good an bad
use pairs  and repeated phrases
two parts of the natural world ocean/fish  hawk/air
use strong verbs & nouns
USE while he
when he
thank
listen
we are saying thank you

A NOTE TO THE WIND

I used to believe that when the sky cried
it was a sign of God’s displeasure
I used to believe that tears 
held some magical power
to transcend or to hide
the idea of active verbs
not passive resistance
drawing a blank
Write it, write it again
I can’t think, I can’t think
I used to believe that love conquered all
Yes, the heart, I used to believe in it too
I had a vision that it all mattered
that patterns would emerge
like tree to sky
or note to wind
the roof of the sky sheltered more than clouds
and stars and day and night
I used to believe that the moon hungered for water
the way the germinating seed hungered for soil
but then I met strange forms deep in the jungle
that hungered only for air
the eye on the back of my neck 
opened to its own nightmare
and I could no longer close it, 
it hungered for light
the water, a sacrament of sorts.



MY GRANDMOTHER’S HANDS

My grandmother’s hands 
were torn and speckled with pigment
fair northern flesh burned by the fierce California sun.
A rebellious knotted vein rose up like a stone.
It was a lucent blue that dragonflies aspire to.
A souvenier from a wayward strand of barbed wire
Her freckles, archiplelago of islands set adrift
on a moon-milk sea.
Tiny Brendan voyagers in curraghs 
headed for the New World
A phalanx of tiny warrior shields 
raised up against a common enemy, the sun
But they failed to protect her children, 
when the melanoma set sail for that country 
from which nothing ever returns.

I remember the wide spatulate fingers
that weeded gardens, 
rubbed sheets against the washboard
that sewed and mended jeans
or made dreses for my first day of school 
and how I was ashamed they were not store-bought.
I remember the way she sewed them
at the announcement of summer
The way she swung the axe,
or sawed wood for winter
or when she cleaved meat.
The way she separated chicken with such surety 
I learned the survival of hands 
but not the deft wayward touch of love.

No caresses were needed 
because I already knew she loved me 
with a love as fierce as the sun that burned her skin 
as she labored in the garden or at the clothesline 
or stacked the wood, she kept us safe, 
and provided when no one else would.
As she knelt to pray in the Sunday pew, 
the sun shone on that knotted vein 
and it was so beautiful—the scarring and freckles, 
a skin painting of faith and tenderness.



PERSONA ANIMAL POEM  red sheet
keep the channels open  Martha Graham quote Robert Duncan's My mother would be a falconress  Ginsberg The Lion for real
Write of a major event, or your mother as an animal
what does your animal smell, hunt, or know?
include an animal in a weird way.

MY MOTHER WAS A CHEETAH

My mother was a cheetah, 
she could outrun any man
but curiosity killed the cat
and so she circled back again and again
as she raced the wind
But she outpaced herself
and was left haunting her own shadow
instead of flesh, bone & fur
But when she outraced death
it kept apace and it got her in the end
all nine lives used up.
First, the twins, and the rivers of blood
unstaunchable, so many stillborn babies
Then the accidents, putting herself in harm’s way
The muggings, the men who would harm her 
by the fist, or the knife, 
or the lip of the windowsill, four stories up
Those who valued life so little, 
they wanted her dead
the men who would kill her for meager SSI checks, 
for their next fix
This pattern was followed by the suicide attempts
and when the drugs didn’t work
and if that wasn’t enough, 
then the cancer shining in her breasts
used up two more lives, but she was saved, 
she was saved several times over
But then it snuck back in behind the implants
It snuck back in on little cat feet
It was the final triad for a life lived at the speed of wind
it all adds up to a life that hung on the cusp
of too many battles 
so that there was no longer enough energy
for the hunt or for the caring of her young
Sure she mourned for her lost cubs
 searching for them in the breeze, 
As dusk fell, her eyes grew wide at imagined dangers
Flight and speed were all that she had left
I will always remember her with her red mane
all wind touseled
and the way she stood, both hunter and hunted
she was both gazelle and cheetah
my mother, the wind.


MY FATHER'S THIRST

my father was a river of thirst
who slid snakewise
into a bottle of Seagrams
until his mind became the water of Lethe
Weather patterns withholding
the love of his children evaporated like dew
in the morning sun  
for how can you love what you do not know?
I came to know him only in death, 
by the cataloging of his things
old coins, handguns, 
souvenir shot glasses 
and casino ashtrays.



MEMORY POEMS  red sheet
Rexroth Christmas Eve, Snow in SF
Robinson Jeffers O Lovely Rock
Gerald Stern The Power of Maple

Write a happy memory, of a time when you felt safe
outside/inside (tree giving instructions, a tree in conversations

IN CONVERSATION

Coast live oak, valley oak, 
buckeye in summer
Tell your children
do not rush that headlong frenzy into light and earth, 
Be sure to fall far enough away from the mother 
for she poisons the soil beneath her, 
She cannot shelter your beneath her canopy
There is room enough only for one at a time
and to flourish you need new horizons
Find a hillside studded with limestone and serpentine, 
for they hide a steady source of deep water 
for you to plumb during times of drought
Between the two extremes you will find a place
neither too toxic nor too loamy
For to grow too fast 
before your roots have anchored to the earth
is to become topheavy
And if you’ve chosen the rich plain over the rocky slope
like your cousin, the valley oak
then, in winter storm, when the rain falls in sheets
your boughs will become heavy 
for you do not shed leaves in winter
Your cupped leaves will fill with gobbets of water and wind
And the wind and meadow will conspire to topple you
They will not support your new weight
and you will be felled by nature
and by your own foolish desire
to crown too soon.

Know your place first
and when it’s safe, and all systems are go, 
only then, push against that shelter of lined walls
to emerge like a butterfly from a cocoon
Split the seams of your prison, 
then send your taproot down deep, 
you only have one chance, 
choose your crevice in stone well.

Tell your children to open into two rafts of nourishment
to carry them forth, know when to open,  
Only then, unfurl your first leaves as if in supplication.

Beware the woodpecker who probes your secret depths
to bury your own children in a purgatory inside you
Beware the oak gall wasp
and especially the beetle who brings 
the sudden oak death on his back
for your sap will run like a red river of grief
that no tide will turn.


SHADAB’S WORKSHOP

WINDMILL

Shadab hands me a bon voyage traveling candle
from the Windmill Hotel in Amsterdam
nestled in a spice tin dressed in yellow and red,
a faint perfume of pine and cleanser escapes

Not my Amsterdam of dank winding canals 
and sudden curtains of rain and sleet
or the spicy smell of wet pavement
and the serpentine hiss of tires in puddles

Or biking through Vondelpaark
on a Sunday afternoon with neo-impressionistic clouds
roiling on the horizon in violet and blue hues.
A rock band blaring on the stage, 
everyone lighting up weed-laced cigarettes
while lovers and pickpockets haunt the shrubbery.

Not the Amsterdam of yesteryear 
when the women in billowing dresses
and best harridan voices gutturally rasped
as they collectively hung their laundry to dry
in a vast Monday dance across the city.
The water taps bellowed and pipes rattled in unison
to a chorus of soap and lye and fish.

The iconic windmill caught an offshore breeze
the harbors filled with furled sails
the air, redolent with spicy cargo from the East India Co.
rolled down the gangplank with a flourish.

Instead, I hold a small round tin
the kind that expensive spice is sold in
the label, dressed in yellow and red
a paper sari or Javanese pareau
nestled inside, a tub of saffron colored wax vat.
Perfume escapes, wafts up, 
the odor of pine resin and laundry
the wick, slumped over, no match will kindle
as if it had buried its head in shame.

9/12/10



Shadab tells us of the names of perfumes, the olfactory senses, the frontal lobe, the limbic system, the hippocamus, and the seat of memory, receptors, how the role of perfume is both danger & desire evolutionary factor 4000 years in the making, first reference is 9th c. Arabic alembic treatise, first to experiment with the rose. 1221 monks...

We will invent our own perfumes
pick a name (what’s in a name: Poem, Duende, l’aire du temps, obsession, opium), discuss ingredients, distilling process
invent your own scent, identify it with a noun (person, place or thing)

L’PETIT SAUVAGE

First, gather rose petals
from the wild climbers 
of abandoned farmsteads
for they are closest to the road to Damascus
then gather lavender 
from the steep south hillsides 
and cliffs of Obuda gardens
in late afternoon 
while the strains of wild gypsy violins play
from the parapet of the old walled city.
Scent the afternoon
wait for dusk 
and add a touch of neruli and jasmine, 
a little amber and clove. 
Steep in glass jars in filtered sunlight 
with rhisome of orris root and ambergris, 
gather the air churned 
by the wings of small songbirds, 
the laughter of children, 
the lonesome cry of a horse 
separated from the herd,
the rustle of pine and bay in late afternoon
where serpentine and angst 
create a bed of strife and longing
for pure sweetness is too cloying, 
you want a balance 
the lavender will wash away your worries
Gather the ephemeral odor of a summer meadow
summer islands, a hint of bay and pine 
followed by the preternatural urge of fall
for you don’t want soothing sloth, 
you want energy and vigor
Crush the rose petals 
and lavender buds stripped from the stems
in a marble bowl with a pestle of ironwood or yew
Double gather in the air of a meadow  
with the heart of neruli or ginger
with sweet almond oil, make into into a balm
and use it sparingly on the wrist at dusk
when sad and in need of of a soul cleansing.

Or decant the concoction into slender bottles 
used to collect tears of Romans
Circle the garden widdershins 
to unwind the distillation of late afternoon
Wear when nostalgic,
 and your dreams will be soothed, 
and you will waken refreshed 
from the ravages of this century.
Call it archipelago and pack it in a box 
made from the nascence of a pearl oyster shell, 
sheathe it in hand dyed silk. 
Throw all caution to the wind.



PAM SINGER’S CLASS

Maria Sabina sez
the blue vault of the sky sez
the north wind sez
the wind sez
the birds are bridges across the sky
the birds are a bridge
wings of the sky
birds are the blue heart of lapis
and tree on tree, emerald slumber
leaf green and sun splendor
the hiss of rattlesnake grass
the rattle of deer hooves 
will set you right again
right as rain, right as rain
sez sez


JILL MOSES CLASS

Embodied poetics (literally) Whitman, I sing the body electric, Dickinson body poems vs the PhD of deconstruction
what lives on after we’re gone?
writing from within the body, or a body of work. I'm too flogged to think, let alone, write. I am saddened by it, but that's the way it is.


GRACE & SUSIE’s CLASS
directional words
what we see in nature

VOICES

Beneath the sky
rustling like a stream, oak
the keen of a hawk
the beauty above me
above me only sky
cover me with stars
planets in conjunction
Jupiters’ moons
surround me with voices
blanket me with the wings 
of hummingbirds gone to war.

Fill me with laden air
turn me like a leaf in an autumn meadow
Tell me of the time of lichen and stone
pale jade and russet
when the corn grew secrets
held safe in the ears of harvest

I am bay, I am oak, I am cedar
guide me through the words
like leaves on the pond
small boats of green and yellow and amber.

Carry me across like Charon
Make me honey oatcakes to feed his hunger
a stream of thought
for I want to live in the same place twice
in the lonely night of stars
and the mountain holds more gravity
than these latent thoughts
of sungiold piercing the shards
of light on a lake at dawn
I want to know why the dappled light
throws myriad suns
with such reckless abandon
what are we seeking?
the light itself
is dressed in skins.


DANA TEEN LOMAX  I'm afraid I bombed in her class too. Tired. Tired. Tired. Double duty of photographing every workshop and participating as a writer is taking its toll.


THIGH

She tells us the strongest muscle is the maximus gluteus
but for me, it’s the thigh
Once I had a car with a bad starter and a bad battery
so I always had to park on a hill
let gravity take its force, ignition, combustion, speed
One time I had to go to the City
I chose my parking spot and getaway wisely
parking at the end of a street
so I could roll down the road and jumpstart the car
what I hadn’t planned on was someone parking in the red zone
in front of me, I was stuck. I waited, no luck
so I sat on my hood and pushed with my thigh muscles. 
The impossible made possible, 
I pushed my car uphill and pushed and pushed, 
rolled the car back far enough to clear the bumper
 must’ve had some help and I got out of the car
I rolled it down the hill, pop-started it and drove home



UBUweb experimental poetry, publishing the unpublishable

FRACTURED SOUND

It begins with a fracturing of sound
the eyes burn, hard to focus
like a sleepy afternoon
that liminal place between waking and sleeping
then the narrowing of vision
the letters on the screen become aquatic
I admire the peculiarity of light and color
the tinabulations an orchestra
of drowsy flies.




Claudia Rankin, politics of the land
how we limit ourselves
she changes her mind in  the middle of the poem,
don’t let me be lonely
she frames culture & politics as if from the outside
pop culture and current events & regret. Frank O’Hara
poets for living waters Amy King using BP language to write poetry

WRITE about a moment when you changed your mind
when you woke to a different perspective

SEA CHANGE

We were having a discussion on something or other, 
I don’t remember what
but when we entered, I was on one side of the fence
and what I thought was firmly entrenched in belief long standing
but then a shifting of sight, 
like when you stare at those optical illusions, 
the box leaning inward or out
I don’t remember what. 
the particulars are unimportant
but it was an epiphany, an AHA!
when I got it
and I was irrevocably on the other side of the fence
looking back, realizing I could never enter
into that easy place of language again. 
For example: to Jew someone down, 
to get something for cheap, or to call someone a Wop, or a Mick
the unintentional hurtfulness buried in pop culture and language, 
sensitivity
the innocence lost
A shift of consciousness.

Alright, I do remember that it was a heavy subject 
obliterated from memory
because we’re not supposed to go there
not something that comes in neat packages of do’s and don’ts
but I do know there was no turning back
and I was a pillar of salt
my tongue cracked in my mouth
and what was black had turned blindingly white.



MEG HAMMILL

fractiles, sequence
native peoples begin with thank you
1. Opening t gratitude
2 owning your pain for the world
3. Seeing with new eyes
4. Going forth

The spiral connects the fragmented mind
choose one to hone in on
environmental crisis, etc
using the news, borrow words & phrases


OPENING TO GRATITUDE

1. Thankful for
clear weather
the view
sun & sky
words unfettered
water in all its forms
the breeze

2 Opening to the pain
vulnerability
ache
migraine
my fluttering heart
overstimulation
moving beyond fear

3. Seeing with new eyes
the bending of limbs
long shadows on the horizon
how the tall grass and the wind scrubs the sky
how it shapes the trees

4. Going forth
ridgetops beckon
I want to play hooky
the distraction is part of the process



TEN VERBS TEN NOUNS

TEACHER words
teach
educate
discipline
learn
instruct
punish
homework
books
words

oil slick
deep water
turtles
fish nurseries
slick
ocean oil well
derrick
fire flames
smoke
boom of human hair

Create sentences mixing I matching form the two lists

SHELL RECOVERY ACT

Instruct the ocean
that the words fanned by the flame
hold the secret instructions 
of fish in deep schools
whether the open books of deepwater
are mutilated or punished by 
the punctuation of derricks and wells 
on the sea bed
the betrayal of burst pipes and bent valves 
that can no longer hold the payload
the sea on fire.


owning the pain of the words 
epistle or ode address the object


Epistle or ode

SHELL EPISTLE

Dear seabirds and turtles
whether greenback or loggerhead
whether pelican or spoonbill
whether cities of fish
lifted from their prime
we diagnose bird and oil slick
name Dawn soap as a savior of feathers
O horrible brave new detergent
thy name is rainbow slick
and dolphin rise
surprised by the betrayal of water.


CLARE BLOTTER
talking in code
3 chakra sounds
moce your voice down
low E
Heart Ah
O sound of the throat

OK, Chakra work did me in—nothing at all to show for that workshop. Think I'll step outside and test the air of late afternoon.


ARTHUR DAWSON  Song  of place
Our job is to become natives of where we are —Snyder

We are ecologically illiterate

Write the story of place names
Dead Man’s Curve
The low road
Shafters
Papermill Creek
Creamery Creek
the spillway
China House

THE PLACE WHERE COYOTE LOST HIS BONE

I am drawn to the back roads
the drive out D Street
the bend where you leave the suburbs behind
the road becomes rub-board rough, 
chuckholes from last year’s rain and frost 
fractures the asphalt like a puzzle
and the tires make an unfamiliar rhythm
the road snakes up the ridge
the sentinel rock outcroppings are a gateway of sorts
natural dolmens of the new world
the one that looks as if it were raised by men
and not the uplifting of faults
the coast live oak grows on the leeward side
for passes in the coastal hills are wind funnels
the wind, laden with a payload of fog
creates micro niches, 
the oak and the cattle take advantage 
of the slender shelter the rock coppice provides
I want to flee civilization
I want to inhabit the places untamed  by man
The setting sun creates a sundial of sorts
the cattle gather close, crop the summer grass short
their eyes rivited on me
this act tells me that the rancher feeds them hay
they associate stopped vehicles with food source
the shadows grow long and snake across the landscape
the light is golden and amber
the wind that traditionally roars through this pass 
is momentarily still.
a surcease, an equilibrium reached  
between inland heat and coastal temperance
but the tree shorn by the western wind 
holds mute testament to the forces of weather.

It is said that the rock is coyote’s bone.
it must’ve been some story how he lost it
but those who knew the story
are all gone now.

I imagine the women came from miles around 
to rub up against the rock
to induce fertility, a baby-making rock.
We don’t know the back story of how it was lost
poor Coyote, losing his boner like that.
Maybe it’s because he didn’t recognize his wife 
after the flood receded and she stuck it there 
to remind him of who she really was.

9/12/10

Friday, August 27, 2010

At IONs Institute, writing workshop

 We're perched on the steep northern slope of Mt. Burdell overlooking the Petaluma Valley watershed, the afternoon wind unfurls its sails & we glide with hawk minds in Ellery Akers' Writing Intensive to write paeans to the land.

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

California Poets in the Schools Science & Spirit Symposium, August 27-29, 2010

NOTE BENE: I've posted several of our CPITS symposiums on this page because traffic seems to direct to this page. The most current event is at the top of the page. Hopefully it isn't too confusing this way.

Write, Sing, and Move the Future 2013 at La Casa de Maria, Santa Barbara, August 23-25. Juan Felipe Hererra is poet-honoree.

California Poets in the Schools 2012
Passing the Gift Forward (click here to redirect to latest post)

Summer has arrived months late and with a vengeance


Summer has finally arrived in all its torpor. Flannel sheets off. Summer sheets on. Again. Hopefully this time, they won't jinx what's left of summer. Would someone in SF please do a little fog dance? A 50° temperature swing from frigid to fire in one day is a bit much. Now, if I put the flannel sheets back on, will the fog roll in? I don't DO triple-digit heat well. Friends posted that it's 117° in Palm Springs, 110° in Orinda, 106° in Santa Cruz, St. Helena, 105° in Sonora, 99° in SF, so how could it be 97° in Oakland— I think my Mac is lying. My outdoor thermometer gauge is split. It's either 40° or 120° Can't shake it down to recalibrate. Even BART is having trouble in the heat! SF BART  Delay Update: because of the heat, trackside equipment is acting up and trains are operating in a slower "manual" mode. Beijing's 60-mile long traffic jam enters Day 11—drivers advance 1/2 mile a day. Why doesn't everybody just back up and turn around? The air smells of smoke and carrion. Smoke is rolling over Grizzly Peak and Oakland Hills—150 acres. Now there's a fire on Mt. Diablo. Not good, this global warming. Gonna be an orange moon rising tonight.

from a Facebook post

Monday, August 23, 2010

Stomping spiders


I stomped a fat black spider to smithereens as I was mopping the kitchen floor—but it was a tiny escaped champagne grape. Foolishly, I thought: Aha! So this is how wine was invented! Obviously I need to mop the floor more often. Or drink more/less wine. And wear spectacles. Sigh! Someone asks, isn't it bad luck to kill a spider? But I was killing grapes! Besides, spiders Loooooooove me! They always want to truss me up and eat me. Right tasty. Trust me, I've been bitten by black widows, woodbine, and California’s answer to brown recluse spiders—this one looked like a crumbly version of a California recluse spider, so I stomped away like a logger at a hoedown.... my lower lip still flares up like a Zodiac raft—a decade later—from residual spider poison.

from a Facebook post

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Very Odd Thought


Very Odd Thought:
I'm not as interested in history that occurs within 25 generations of living memory.
That makes me a… medievalist? An ostrich?

Thursday, August 5, 2010

The New Zamizdat

OK, I must admit that I'm mesmerized by the new Blogger stats tool—in a shiny packratty sort of way. I am endlessly fascinated that I can now view what pieces are being read—how many readers, and what countries. Positively mind-blowing.

First, writing is a lonely business. Audience is a whole other hemisphere. Then there's the old saw: Who do you write for? Who are your readers? The publish or perish paradigm took off its kid cloves and flexed its knuckles and whistled, "hey kid 'comere!" when blogging was invented. Shades of Marshall McLuhan's Global Village.

I come from the American school of Samizdat or, rather, Tamizdat tradition. No, tamizdat is not a typo—as one well-intending publisher tried to correct one of my posts.
Russian samizdat, from samo- (self) + izdatelstvo (publishing house), from izdat (to publish). Coined facetiously on the model of Gosizdat (State Publishing House). (from AWAD)
Soviet samizdat was a form of illegal self-publishing in a seriously limited edition format, using ten layers of carbon paper plus ten sheets of clean paper—and an upright manual typewriter replete with a print ribbon you had to re-ink by hand. Typing through that many layers of paper was a real bitch. Weak ring finger strength equaled blurred "e"s in final copies. And pity the poor sot who was gifted copy #10—it was a bitch to the tenth power to read.

This is the underground tradition in which Soviet poetry (and secret texts including copies of Bibles) were painstakenly reproduced—and distributed, underground. I met one of Osip Mandelstahm's samizdat publishers in Leningrad, held a fragile copy in my hands—knowing that people risked their lives preserving his poetry. Mandelstahm & Blok's chapbooks still reeked of rancid printer's ink decades later.

Then there was the Leningrad Rock Opera singer Valera (aka Valery / Valeriy) Stupachenko - Валерий Ступаченко (who I did not marry because he loved his dead wife and God more than me—who could compete with that?) Valera treasured his dog-eared carbon-paper Bible. Cherished possessions from a time when religious worship too was illegal.

Saturday, July 31, 2010

Palmetto bugs


I was both pleased and appalled to learn from Trane deVore that the large palmetto bug I once encountered in the dark is merely a large cockroach. I was remembering how they frantically scuttled & flipped over like VW bugs, and then noisily spun on their backs, buzzing like chainsaws when I turned on the kitchen light in the middle of the night at Roshi Aikin's zendo in Haiku, Maui, one summer evening a long, long time ago. 

Someone asks if I belonged to the Diamond zendo. It was a long time ago. And tequila of the first water was involved...verily, it was the holy water of choice—I sat zazen with Gary Snyder & Will Staple, yes. Diamonds on the souls of our shoes. I met poet-translator Roshi Aikin years later at a WS Merwin reading in Pasadena—and was floored when he remembered me! What else did he remember? Apparently my ¡Aha! moment of enlightenment took on bug form. How very Kafkaesque! Just leave some crumbs in the sink or the floor for me, please.

Saturday, July 24, 2010

For the Duration


Marianne Ware, poet, novelist, & the grand dame of belles lettres—the epistolary packin' mama mentor of countless Sonoma County writers—passed away on her 74th summer solstice. Too soon. We expected her to be here much longer to greet the return of the sun. Now something of the sun is gone from us. Eclipsed.

I first met Marianne through Lee Perron—they were coordinating the Russian River Writers' Guild.  I was newly arrived to poetry, and before I knew it, I was roped into the Writers' Guild, which became both my teething ring and my training ground.

Little did I know, I was also fresh fodder—grist for the mill—to help run it. And later, I was left holding the bag. But I learned to stick it out for the duration. At the time, I was living out of my car after a bad breakup. She even found me a place to live—at her daughter Laurie's cabins.

Because Marianne was adamant that prose also be represented at the RRWG reading series, and because of her, I learned to dabble in prose. Dyslexic that I am, I discovered what writing—like people—came in all sorts of shapes and sizes. Not just poems and stories, but letters, notes, lists. They all served to inform.

Marianne brought the light of writing into the lives of so many of us. She encouraged us to find our own true authentic voice. To spread our wings and to fly close—but not too close—to the sun. She always encouraged the next generation of fledgling writers: Doug Powell, Glenn Ingersoll, Trane deVore. The Guild offered a platform for new and established writers to read together.

We booked poets & writers—even musicians from near and far to share their love of the word. Utah Phillips, Rosalee Sorrells, Bobbie Louise Hawkins, Ed Balchowski. Some of the writers she encouraged made it to the big stage: Andrei Codrescu, Michael Oandatje, D.A. Powell, Jane Hirshfield come to mind. But  the history of the Guild is a whole other story. We are here to honor Marianne today.

Thursday, July 15, 2010

Coquo Ergo Sum



Coquo Ergo Sum
I cook, therefore I yam.

And now I’m a bit wider than I was.

Maybe it should read: Edo Ergo Sum 
I eat, therefore I am.

Nom nom nom. 
Mutato nomine de te fabula narratur.

a riff on An Athena of Owls

Think I'm gonna lick some serpentine rocks

Think I'm gonna go out and lick some serpentine rocks. Daft politicians and sheeple want to ban serpentine as our state rock because it contains asbestos. What is this, a nanny state? We already know the relatively low working IQ of our legislators and governator ad nauseum—well, they've outdone themselves—declaring serpentine to be dangerous—and therefore should be abolished as our state rock. What nonsense.

Very little serpentinite actually contains any asbestos, the only hypothetical hazard would be if that extremely small percentage of serpentine that actually contains one form of asbestos, chrysotile, one of 20 minerals found in serpentinite, was used for—say road fill.

Most serpentine rock has zero asbestos—and the term asbestos here means they have long stringy fibers—not like the man-made asbestos in the ceiling tiles of our public schools during the 1960s. There is a form of asbestos in some serpentine called Chrysotile. Chrysotile is but one of 20 serpentine group minerals.This means that chrysotile is not a significant component in every chunk of serpentinite.

In order to get silicosis, mesothelioma, etc, a body would need to work at intentionally inhaling serpentine powder in a sealed room for decades to even have a remote chance of getting cancer from it. More likely to get lung cancer from second hand cigarette smoke or talcum powder.

Note: I said powder—so if a sculptor were to work in an enclosed room with serpentine for 20 years, he might or might not get mesothelioma from the rather inert form of asbestos in a very small percentage of serpentine rocks.

Technically speaking, serpentine is a mineral, not a rock, the rock itself is called serpentinite—but no one calls it that–too awkward on the tongue. Apparently this rock-bottom stupid bit of legislature was snuck into the system in favor of asbestos lawyers who stand to make a lot of money. Hoho!

I hiked up Big Rock Ridge the other day and most of the danged ridge is serpentine—George Lucas's main spring comes right out of serpentine rock. I wrote a blog about it (& CA Parks retweeted it!):

Sunday, July 11, 2010

on lucid dreaming


During Beltaine, 1989, I had a series of disturbing dreams where old men were setting the gulf water on fire. I did not understand the imagery‚ it was too horrible to conceive. One line made it into this poem WILDCAT BEACH, BELTAINE   I assumed it was a Gulf War image. But now I see that I was lucid dreaming.

July 11, 2010

Gulf Oil Spill:Deepwater Horizon



The Deepwater Horizon oil rig fire has exposed the obscene behaviour of the world’s fourth-largest corporation, British Petroleum (BP). No other country has been ravaged by BP as much as Iran. BP was founded in 1902 as the Anglo-Persian Oil Company (APOC) to exploit Iran's oil reserves. And now BP exploits the Gulf of Mexico. 

Heartbreaking images of dying dolphins trying to breathe, watching the oil fires...
This is probably the greatest crime of the century because of the long-term ecological consequences. See video.

During Beltaine, 1989, I had a series of disturbing dreams where old men were setting the Gulf water on fire. I did not understand the imagery‚ it was too horrible to conceive. One line made it into this poem. I assumed it was a Gulf War image. But now I see that I was lucid dreaming. Another Gulf.
When the first big oil spill hit San Francisco/Bay Area—I was assigned to cleaning up Wildcat Beach. This was before it was a national park—still private ranchlands. They hauled us out in cattle trucks. Standing room only. Later, when I backpacked there with a 5th grade class in 1989, I had a series of dreams about the sea being on fire. Hence the poem.

I was just shocked—after I viewed that video on the gulf yesterday—that the images were strikingly similar to my dreams of 1989. They left me devastated, shaken to the core...and so, here we are.

Saturday, July 10, 2010

Facebook is a Global Soapbox


When I was a teenager, I stood transfixed at Hyde Park, London, watching the Sunday soapbox orators—who have assembled at the Speakers' Corner since 1872—climb up onto their wooden (soap) boxes, with megaphones in hand, and crazily pontificate about everything under the sun. And then it dawned on me, I realized that FaceBook is one vast global soapbox.



As far as I'm concerned, 'whom' is a word that was invented to make everyone sound like a butler. -Calvin Trillin, writer (b. 1935) 

A living language is like a man suffering incessantly from small haemorrhages, and what it needs above all else is constant transactions of new blood from other tongues. The day the gates go up, that day it begins to die. -H.L. Mencken, writer, editor, and critic (1880-1956)

added 7/17

Monday, July 5, 2010

Spider housecleaning revenge


It appears I bit off more than I could chew with this 2 square feet a day cleaning/repair thing: one rearranged corner & construction of new bookshelf yielded 3 spider bites. To add insult to injury, I caught another spider racing across my boob early this AM like it was the horse races at Emain Macha. I was not my usual critter-compassionate self rescuing creatures great & small. Whap! What's with this spider-bite revenge thing & housecleaning? Benadryl's my friend.

July 5, 2010

Friday, July 2, 2010

Hiking up Big Rock Ridge


Entrance to Big Rock Ranch—George Lucas's compound in Marin County, northern California. All these photos are © 2010 by Maureen Hurley and may not be used without express written permission from her. Please respect copyright.

Yesterday, I wore the skin right off my feet by hiking 3 hours in last year's worn out crocs up a long mountain range. Crocs = rubber slippers. Not even a proper half-shoe. What was I thinking? I promptly stepped on a stick and punctured a hole in my foot—but it didn't deter me. Though I gimped a bit, I was on an adventure. The euphoric path beckoned and blocked the pain. I had no idea where the trail led, or where I was going. Other than it was there, in front of me.


Big Rock, the apex of the watershed divide between West Marin (Lucas Valley Creek) and Southern Marin (Miller Creek). © 2010 by Maureen Hurley

Big Rock Ridge in the distance. You can see the radio towers to the right. © 2010 by Maureen Hurley

The path led ever onward. And so I followed the trail switchback after switchback into box canyons, climbing through chaparral, traversing crenulated flanks of steep hillsides—heading east, south, then north, then south-east again. I strolled beneath oak cathedrals where bumblebees droned in the banks of sage, phacelia, star thistle and bush monkeyflower, I crossed damp seasonal runnels in the fern-lined ravines. Not enough to wet my feet, but horsetail ferns thrived. I gazed out on the southern exposure of chaparral slopes from the rails of civilized wooden foot bridges that made the hike seem very Japanese.


Invasive purple star thistle &amp Bombus Californicus, one of 27 California native California bumblebees—threatened species all. Also sighted: diminutive but toxic to livestock yellow star thistle. And the rare native carmine red cobweb thistle—I should've taken a photo but it wasn't very close, and I was in a hurry. Double-click image to enlarge it. © 2010 by Maureen Hurley

The trail opened up and took a sharp turn to the northwest and held course. I expected it to climb the chaparral ridge to the southeast—on public lands. I quickened my pace. When I crossed the threshold of the ridge, a narrow hiker's vee into the vast golden pastures of Big Rock Ranch, the view was so spectacular, I was gob-smacked.

This was a ridge I have always wanted to hike but it was off limits as we didn't know the rancher at Big Rock. The western slope was too out in the open to successfully trespass. And the rancher was permanently irate because the teen townies from Marinwood kept painting the iconic Big Rock in pastel hues.

George Lucas inherited the rancher's fight but took a Jedi stance. Now Big Rock is sandblasted clean and fenced in—in solitary confinement, replete with surveillance camera. Now, the only graffiti artists are the ravens who shit on its crest.

Trailhead. Note the surveillance camera trained on Big Rock. © 2010 by Maureen Hurley

The view was so stunning, I took myriad photos of downtown San Francisco—Baghdad by the Bay as Herb Caen dubbed it—all three bay bridges (the Golden Gate, the Bay and Richmond bridges). To the southeast, Mt. Diablo loomed nearly 4000 feet straight up from an otherwise featureless plateau. But marine haze hid details. The naked eye was a far better camera lens.

Mt. Diablo from Loma Alta. Telephoto lens distorted the color and atmospheric haze made it hard to see. © 2010 by Maureen Hurley

There was s small corner of San Pablo/Suisuin Bay glistening like lapiz; and to the southwest, majestic Mt. Tamalpais peeked out from behind its smoky darkness, framed by the broad open slopes of Loma Alta ridge—where I hiked up in my old crocs at the summer solstice. To the west (or Tír na-nÓg, as my grandmother called it), the familiar eastern flank of Mt. Barnabe (my natal home—a place that haunts me even in dreams) was coyly shrouded a gossamer shawl of marine mist.

As I crested the Big Rock Ridge summit after a steady hour of navigating even more switchbacks, I could see glimmerings of the Coast Range—Mt. Whittenburg, Elephant (or Black's) Mountain—once featured on Jesse Colin Young & the Youngbloods album cover—near Pt. Reyes—and to the north veering to the east near Novato, the tip of Mt. Burdell and the laid back Sonoma Moutain—cradling the Petaluma watershed. This is probably one of the best views in all of Marin Co. And I've traversed most of the coastal ridges between Mt. Tam to Devil's Slide. I've been around.

This is view you really have to earn. Sort of like hiking up Ben Lomond (3000'), you just keep at it, one foot in front of the other, and you'll reach the summit. Why would I compare Big Rock to a classic Scottish icon? Because the last time I got an urge to go climb a mountain was at Ballloch, part of the Trossachs range that cradles Loch Lomond, Scotland. Once I started trudging up the slopes of Balloch Castle, euphoria set in‚ and I wanted to keep on going. Roamin' in the gloamin'. I hiked until it was nearly midnight. We walked back to the village under starlight.

Besides, we have our fair share of Scottish references in the Greater Bay Area: Glen Ellen, Inverness, Ross, Greenbrae, Falkirk, Dunsmuir, Dumbarton, Brisbane, Albany, Stewartville, Scotts Valley, Ben Lomond, Bonny Doon, Campbell, Gilroy. And I haven't even gotten to the creek names. Suffice to say our old phone number was GL-4 for Glenwood—I suspect the suburb name of of Marinwood was an offshoot of Glenwood. I imagine that right now, my sweetie, Neil, is gazing out his ailing mother's door across the Clyde Valley at Ben Lomond and the Trossachs. A munro I plan to one day hike.

Big Rock Ridge, visible from Highway 101, dissects southern Marin—Marinwood—from Novato and is part of the larger Bay Area Ridge Trail system. According to the Marin County Open Space website, Big Rock Ridge is the second tallest mountain range in Marin; it looms more than 1800 ft over Terra Linda—with our local goddess (or The Sleeping Lady—often compared to Mt. Fuji), Mt. Tamalpais, the tallest at 2572 feet.


Mt. Tamalpais, though not a volcano, rises straight up from sea level 2600 feet, is often compared to Japan's Mt. Fuji. 
© 2010 by Maureen Hurley

Mt. Tamalpais, the Bay Area's own Mt. Fuji-san, used to stand at 2600 feet until the army corps of engineers got ahold of it during the Cold War and sawed one pap off readying it like an Amazon warrior princess—so her aim would be true. The implanted Nike missiles were never launched, but to this day, the women of Marin have a high incidence of breast cancer. My mother died from it, my two aunts survived. I live in dread.
California serpentine, aka California jade, and soapstone, or, more properly, serpentinite, is really group of 20 different varieties of serpentinite stones, one of which sometimes has an inert form of chrysotile asbestos, is not the cancer culprit. You'd have to grind up the rock into a powder and breathe non--native antigorite studded serpentine in deep for 20 years to develop cancer—and it would be mesothelioma—lung cancer, not breast cancer. 
But the scientifically illiterate closet hysterics are ignoring scientific facts and trying to ban the state rock of California. If serpentine were the cancer culprit, then men too would get breast cancer too. Breast cancer and mesothelioma are equal opportunity diseases. (A scientifically illiterate, moronic State Senator Gloria J. Romero proposed legislation (SB 624) in May 2010 to remove serpentine as the state rock and lithologic emblem.)
Serpentine soils or serpentine barrens, do host rare endemic species of plants found nowhere else in the world: leather fern, coffee fern, jewelflower, popcorn flower, campion, rock cress, wallflower, wooly sunflower, Marin western flax, linanthus, Clarkia, Indian paintbrush, owl's clover, buckwheat, manzanita, sargent cypress—most of which I've found in my wanderings. Who knew wat we called a wimpy California daisy is actually the endangered pentachaeta bellidiflora. But I digress
Mt. Barnabe—facing west. I grew up in the valley below the tower. The other side of that vague hill to the right is ours'. © 2010 by Maureen Hurley
Now, I'd always learned that my Mt. Barnabe was the second tallest mountain in Marin (I was surprised to discover it was only 1466'; it seemed so much bigger when I was young—but it does rise up nearly 1000' up from the foothills.) Maybe they meant in West Marin. Big Rock is Central /Southern Marin—West Marin folks consider it enemy territory. As a child, I used to climb up Mt. Barnabe often as it was my own personal playground. Most afternoons I rode up one arm of the ridge or down the other—it cradled me, made me who I am.

I knew all the mountain's secrets—where the best springs were hidden. The castle rocks. Where the dead lie buried. The windswept glens. The names of rocks: serpentine, Franciscan and limestone. The meadows where the abundant wildflowers grew. Mallow and baby blue eyes. Shooting stars and lupine. Godetia and meadowfoam. Butter and eggs. Azalea and horsetail fern. We'd pluck gold-back fern and stamp fern-prints on our jeans with the pale green pollen.

Sometimes I'd take out the little book stashed inside the geological umbilicus‚ a brass marker embedded at the summit, to see who signed it. Not many folks hiked up Mt. Barnabe in those days—and they always came from the Samuel P. Taylor Park side, not from my side of the mountain. But we knew most of the ranchers. So the western world was my oyster.

A friend was on fire lookout duty on Mt. Barnabe one summer, and I used to ride my horse up to the old wooden clapboard lookout tower that was built like a ship's quarters. Not like the ugly new stucco tower. But check out the view in the link. We'd spend hours gazing at the vast ranges—is that smoke? No. Low fog. My favorite views were to the west—Elephant Mountain, the long finger of Tomales Bay. A thin sliver of Kent Lake spillway to the south, and Mt. Tam.

As I stood surveying my new kingdom of wind at the summit, I noted my Mt. Barnabe—named after Samuel Taylor's beloved white mule—who is buried on its slopes, was roughly level with the serpentine-studded Big Rock Ridge (1825')—so I assumed they must be fairly close in height. But Big Rock has 360' on Mt. Barnabe. Poor beloved mountain of my childhood, demoted to third place.

Serpentine-studded trail. © 2010 by Maureen Hurley

George Lucas's compound. No sign of life other than exiting work trucks. ILM is now housed in the Presidio. It's come a long ways from the dicy canals of San Rafael. © 2010 by Maureen Hurley

Most of the land I traversed is owned by George Lucas—but now, because of Open Space, we can legally trespass on Big Rock Ridge. Of course, I took obligatory photos of Lucas's compound surrounded by a moat. I won't dwell here about what that new reservoir has done to the ecosystem of Lucas Valley Creek as the huge Big Rock spring and tule marsh I crossed, that feeds the reservoir—is the headwaters.

I could even see bits of Skywalker (Bulltail) Ranch with its hillsides plaited in grapes the next canyon over. I plucked a gold-back fern and stamped delicate decorations on my jeans for old time's sake, and sucked the nectar from an orange bush monkeyflower blossom. I admired the lacy chamise in full bloom. Pale pink-tinged manzanita bells, with tiny tart "apples" ripening, pink honeysuckle, and the shiny dark leavers of the ceanothus—mountain lilac. California buckwheat. Even the lowly morning glories looked good to me.

Bush monkeyflower and morning glory, aka chaparral false bindweed. Double-click image to enlarge it. © 2010 by Maureen Hurley
Farewell to spring. Aka Clarkia or godetia—a member of the evening primrose family. Double-click image to enlarge it. © 2010 by Maureen Hurley
Clarkia, or farewell to spring, by the roadside. Clarkia, named after Lewis and Clark—has 30 species, most in CA, and some are rare—especially the species that grow in serpentine soil. Pay attention to the markings. Another favorite of mine is scarlet ribbons. I took photos of them too but didn't want to overburden this blog with photos. See Long Way Home—Hiking Loma Alta Ridge for more wildflowers —including scarlet ribbons. © 2010 by Maureen Hurley

Mountain chamise and bush monkeyflower. Manzanita and sage were also in full bloom. I've never seen such a lush and colorful riot of chaparral in bloom. To see more serpentine plant images, visit my Picasa site. There were also more images of Big Rock Ridge (but Google killed Picasa so this link no longer works, sorry). © 2010 by Maureen Hurley

Detail of serpentine, California's state rock. Like a close-up of an Impressionist oil painting. The orange is lichen. Double-click image to enlarge it. © 2010 by Maureen Hurley

Serpentine detail. Double click to see larger image. © 2010 by Maureen Hurley

At the higher elevations, Mariposa lilies, phlox, clarkia, brodiaea, Ithuriel's spears, blue-eyed grass (really an iris), pearly everlasting (related to eidelweiss), chaparral pea, and bush poppy, and a few spring stragglers—California poppies. No lupine or larkspur—intolerant of serpentine soils?

The California state rock, serpentine, (really a mineral) is the result of tectonic action along fault lines where two continental plates collide: the North American, and the Pacific plates. Serpentinite (the rock, vs. the mineral) is an ultra-basic metamorphic rock, from under the earth's mantle. Tomales Bay is the San Andreas Fault.

Serpentine soils, toxic to most plants, host many rare endemic plants that grow nowhere else in the world. These ridges—geologic islands—are the last refuge for over 300 endangered endemic species: ridge-specific manzanita, mariposa lilies/tulips, owl's clover, wallflowers, flax, campion, and odd drought tolerant ferns. Species found on Mt. Tam are not related to their counterparts on Ring Mountain in Tiburon. From what I can tell—Big Rock Ridge is one vast ridge of serpentine. Not typical Franciscan strata.

Some form of sunflower, gumweed, or yellow aster? Confirmed: Bolander’s goldenaster. This hirsute plant was growing close to the summit (1800') in the open grasslands facing west. Double-click image to enlarge it. © 2010 by Maureen Hurley

The names of plants came tumbling back—names my grandmother had taught me as a child. And the scientific names I'd learned from my biology teacher, Al Molina. I chanted them as I trudged up the switchbacks: dodecatheon hendersonii, shooting stars, escholtzia californica—named after a botanist on the Russian expedition to Fort Ross, nemophilia menziesi—baby blue eyes. Indian Soaproot, or deer lettuce—only flowers after 4 PM. Near the summit, I noted a strange sunflower I'd never seen before—like gumweed grindelia. Where did all those names come from? Where did they go?

Now this was a find—I dismissed it as pea chaparral—until I saw the seed pods. I did a double take and counted the petals: 4, not 5 or 6. My first sighting of a bush poppy in Marin! © 2010 by Maureen Hurley

Mariposa lily, or butterfly tulip. The spot patterns differ from ridge to ridge. Double-click image to enlarge it. © 2010 by Maureen Hurley

I'm not sure of the total miles I hiked—my body said at least 7 miles but then, it's no spring chicken. Nor is it reliable. My knee was holding its own—tore it in Andreas Canyon, Palm Springs one 4th of July—but my ankle wasn't as cooperative. So the built in pedometer may have been lying. There were many switchbacks. I lost count. But a new view filled my senses at every turn. So my pain was assuaged.

I am a cranky hiker—I don't like to hike with friends or to meet another soul—it interferes with my hearing the song of place. All afternoon, I had the mountain to myself. I was startled to meet two mountain bikers up this trail—they earned their view. I envied them, their swift descent.

Double-click image to enlarge it. © 2010 by Maureen Hurley

I didn't go all they way to the radio tower as it was fast approaching sunset and my feet were killing me. I had to keep moving for fear my body would seize up and I'd be stuck up there overnight, clad in a tanktop & shorts. I didn't have a watch nor a cellphone. I did, however, have my grandfather's wee brass penknife on me—but little else by way of survival tools. And I didn't fancy munching on brodiaea bulbs as there wasn't much else to eat at the top. Besides, a blanket of fog was rolling in. So back down the mountain it was. I was racing daylight.

Nicasio Reservoir—and shrouded in the fog, in the distance, is Tomales Bay. © 2010 by Maureen Hurley

As I turned to the west, I involunntarily gasped—Nicasio Reservoir—sheets of silver shimmering in the distance, nuzzling the hills like a mirage. Shrouded in mist, Tomales Bay and Inverness. Where I had come from—so far away. Another country. To the east, the lights of the city lighting up like fireflies. But I couldn't tarry. A garter snake whipped across the trail in front of me. I yelled, leapt straight up in the air first, and asked questions later. Prime rattlesnake territory.

Once, a coiled fellow was sunning himself on the path as I trudged up our steep hill to catch my horse. She had an uncanny way of heading for the ridge around 3PM, the time I got home from school. I grasped a tussock of grass and heard him and without hesitation, I leaped backwards—straight out into space. He lunged.

I landed in the brush some 20 feet below. Gophersnakes mimic rattlesnakes—the prime difference is that the rattler holds his rattle up, the gophersnake trashes the tip of his tail against leaves. This fellow was shaking the business end of his schtick.

As I stopped by the tule spring with a water trough dedicated to Lorene French Volpe, I was literally straddling two different watersheds—Miller Creek to the east and Lucas Valley/Halleck Creek to the right. Sweet water from the pipe. I risked it. Serpentine above, no upper seep. Less chance of giardia. Ugh. Been there, done that.

One time, circa 1969, my grandmother and I traversed Halleck Creek looking for the last surviving band of Coastal Miwok Indians. We found only abandoned farm houses but the view sustained me. I could see into a small rincon of Halleck Valley as well. Hiking up Big Rock Ridge brought my small myriad worlds into focus. The great Aha! Pieces of the puzzle fitting together at last. My own inner topo map I carry with me always.

Last time I trusted a man with a topo map while hiking on unknown fire roads near Austin Creek, Sonoma County one April Fool morning—we foolishly hiked too far out, and as dusk fell, we couldn't make it back.

At least we had a blanket that time and the moon was full. At one point we used the durry blanket as a rope to slide down crevices and wash outs on the abandoned fire roads. Some of them were not even roads but donkey trails to cinnabar mines.

The road home. © 2010 by Maureen Hurley

I lingered a few more moments at the Big Rock Ridge summit, then I spun a slow dervish of joy as if to take the landscape with me. But it was shank's mare back down the ridge. The shadows grew long and it was as if I was in another landscape.

A good hour later, I staggered into Peets' around 8 PM where my cousin plied me with double decafe lattes, muffins and Advil. My dogs were tired, I think I need to retire my crocs which, at this point are little better than thin moccasins. I was literally walking softly on the earth—for fear of stickers and stone bruises. The next time I decide to go for a little impromptu hike, I think I'll wear shoes.

Stonecrop, liveforever, or hens and chickies. Double-click image to enlarge it. © 2010 by Maureen Hurley

Bluebelly lizard, aka western fence lizard, sunning itself on Lucas Creek. © 2010 by Maureen Hurley



Topo map from MCOS site—where you can download a pdf.


For plant resources I used Wiki, various native plant societies, and UC Berkeley's CalPhotos.


More info on Serpentinite from the real rockhounds:

Looking For Detachment—Serpentine: A Group of Minerals

Geotripper—The Other California: Geology and our State Symbols 

Long way Home Wildflowers of Marin—some are specific to the serpentine soils of Marin, San Francisco and San Mateo counties. Loma Alta and Big Rock both host rare and endangered wildflowers. Marin dwarf flax (Hesperolinon congestum) is a threatened plant species.

Hiking up Loma Alta Trail